I know I am what most identify as "feminine." I will use this word in this entry as how majority of people stereotype what something means to be feminine. I have studied enough body language, vocal technique, and people’s quirks to know that pretty much EVERYTHING about me is feminine. My mannerisms, the timbre of my voice, my facial structure, etc. The only thing that isn’t feminine about me, is how I feel. I don’t feel, what I believe the common tongue refers to as, feminine.
I've always worn my emotions on my sleeve. I have always cried at the drop of a hat, been angry within .03 seconds, and showed too much loud enthusiasm in a moment where normal emotions would have just sent a smile. But I love this about myself. I didn't always, don't get me wrong. I was made fun of as a child, called "cry baby." My parents were concerned I would be too sensitive for my career choice. I mean, I was concerned about that too! I was heading into a career where you were judged on your appearance, talent, clothes, etc! I was heading into a career where disappointment was a norm and rejection was an every day thing. Sometimes multiple times a day.
But for some reason, perhaps because of my emotional and sensitive childhood, I am super awesome now. I almost have a super power. Because I felt all those emotions growing up, I somehow can now tell you EXACTLY what I'm feeling when I'm feeling it. I have found that this is a coveted thing. I can tell you, the person who made me cry, exactly why I'm crying. Your tone indicated something that I didn't feel good about. Or, you didn't look me in the eye. So I have these super strong emotions pop up in an instant, but then I can say calmly, with tears coming out of my eyes or with my face as red as a beet, that I am feeling upset because it appears you meant this when I want you to mean this. Or whatever the circumstance. I realize that's a little vague, but currently I'm talking about relationships with others and I don't want to get TOO personal.